2, then 3, now 4...? What?

Yep...if you caught onto the title you already know...We are expecting baby number 2! We are actually so excited about this new development. This was not our original plan by any means and it has cost me many many tears and nights of crying to get to the decision to have another little one so quickly.

So here is the reasoning and madness for this decision in a tiny nut shell....After Brayden was born, I had some complications. We went to several OB/GYN's to seek answers and in the end, all 4 doctors said exactly the same thing. (I kept going to different doctors because I was hoping to get a different answer that I liked better...but that didn't happen.) All 4 doctors said that we needed to have our family as soon as possible so that if/and/or when I needed surgery and could not have any more children as a result of the surgery, we would not feel sad that we did not have the children that we wanted. I cried a lot over this information because I kept thinking about my sanity and how I wanted my plan for my family to work out. (wait 2 or 3 years for another baby) Well, things got even more crazy when we started to pray about what to do. I guess don't pray about something if you are not ready for the answer and I was not ready for what Heavenly Father had to tell me..."You need to get pregnant again now." So with this going on, I cried even more. I kept telling Heavenly Father that "I can't do it. How can I handle a 1 year old and a newborn? I am not a good enough person to do all that. How can we afford that?" Well our answer never went away and so after a few months I resigned myself to the fact that this is what we needed to do and well...here we are now! After all this time, I am actually great with this decision because I feel so at peace with it all. I am excited to be pregnant this time around because I am much less stressed about the whole thing. I already know what to expect for the most part and feel like I have this "mom thing" somewhat under control...most days. I know that being a parent for 2 young children will be much more difficult and challenging but we will live. We're not the first to do it and we won't be the last.

The baby is due in June so that means it will probably be born in May. Well, we are hoping for the baby to be born at least at 8 months this time instead of 7 like with Brayden but full term would be great too. I decided that I can handle the baby being in the hospital for a week but I don't want to have it be there 5 weeks again. (Side note: And Brayden would have been there a month longer is we had not fought with the hospital to let him come home!) anyway...

Things are going well so far. I seem to get the most sick at night which is a blessing since Brayden is asleep and if he isn't Jason is home to help with him. Jason is convinced that we are not only having a girl, we are having twin girls. Whatever buddy...He thinks that since he was right about Brayden being a boy he is going to be right about the sex of our children always. We'll...see...2 months or so and we will find out if he is or not! I would love a little girl but I would be excited for another boy too. I guess it is true that the second time around you show much quicker because I looked down today at my belly in my church dress and couldn't believe how big I was already. I know that most couldn't tell other than me and Jason but still...(Jason can't tell either, he just pretends to just to humor me.)
Whatever...anything that gets me to the looking pregnant stage faster and out of the just looking chubby stage I am for.

Now, I know that as a formality you are supposed to wait 3 or so months before announcing the happy news but this is me we are talking about. I am not a patient person and having such a wonderful secret is so hard to keep. I hate when people ask so what is going on in your life and you can't really tell them what is...like oh I am pregnant. So we decided to forego the waiting period and get the announcement out there. We told immediate family last week and my mom told me to wait, and not to write a blog about it. Instantly, that old teenage streak inside of me instantly siad no! haha...well I lasted a week mom. And Lizzie...I know that I don't need to blog about every aspect of my life but it makes me happy so I am going to. Besides, my friends are all over the country now so blogging is a way to keep in touch with them. They dont all live in a 1/2 mile radius at BYU anymore. But I love you still even for telling me not to blog about it.

So...there you go...the news is out! We will keep you updated with all the happy developments!